Sunday, 9 March 2014

I don't want you to go.

This has been a very tough week. My Gran fell ill with pneumonia and she is struggling to get better. I'm finding it very difficult trying to take my nursing head off and be the supportive granddaughter. But I can't lie and say that the outlook isn't too great the minute either.

I'm with you every step of the way Gran

It's almost like a waiting game of trying to see if she gets better or not. She talks and moves but she is so exhausted from struggling to breathe.

I was sat there this afternoon and I had to leave the room and cry. Yesterday was international women's day and I could not help but think 'I could not have existed without her.' If she weren't alive then she would not have had my incredible Mum, and then obviously I would't be here either.

I am watching her disappear and it's selfish to say I don't want her to go. No-one does and I hope she gets better. I want nothing more than for her to be well again.

Whatever the angels choose to it with grace. She's my Gran and a wonderful forthright lady.

I need all the happy thoughts and positive vibes in the world right now.


Ashley said...

So sorry to hear. Sending prayers and thoughts to your grandma and your family right now.

<3 Ash

Colette said...

Becca I feel so awful for you. I've been thinking of you and your gran a lot these last few days.

Being a nurse must make this even harder for you because you have to carry the burden of understanding how poorly she is.

Sending you all my love and prayers.

Laura Anne said...

You can't see it but I'm scrunching up my face to squeeze out some positive vibes and sending them south to you.....

And I'm sending up some prayers to the heavens too.

much hugs x

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