Yesterday I got the best news that a job I applied for - and really want - I got an interview for!!!
It's on the 8th June and the lady who will be interviewing me said I was really promising and that my CV was really good. I'm so happy!
I posted last week that I am just incredibly unhappy where I am. I want to be a really good nurse but in the hectic and crazy environment I am in at the moment. I just don't feel like I can do any of that - I come home from work so down now and have on so many occasions cried before going to work.
I think when you reach that point that you need a change!
This new position is actually in a private hospital but to run the NHS section of it. It's a senior role, more money and I will only do about two nights a month (not 10!) - amazing!
Positive vibes please. I really really would like this position!
I actually cannot believe I am writing this post because I am still in disbelief...
...that Rachael, my little baby sister, is 21 today!!! In fact I have set this post to be scheduled at the exact time she was born.
On 22nd May 1991 at 13:35pm Rachael entered the world with a full head of brown hair and a pair of lungs no Mother would forget.
I still remember when we used to argue over who got the first iced bun at the bakery when she was 6 and I was 8. It really does make you think how time flies! I mean I remember writing this post for her 18th birthday in 2009!!!
When I speak to people about Rachael I tend to think of this.
How can you miss the mischievous grin?!
I certainly don't think of her like this....below.
Taken 3 weeks ago...yeah she's certainly grown up a bit!
In honour of her 21st birthday I want to share 21 facts, things I love and things I don't necessarily adore about my little sister.
Oh my! This girl is stubborn. I hate the fact I can never win an argument or get my point across to her without blowing my top off...ever.
I love how she went from "I'm always going to be a tom boy" to the girliest girl I have ever met!!!
When she was little, til the age of about 12, she never wore a pair of trousers. She said they made her legs ache haha! It was all about skirts and dresses, even if they never colour coordinated.
She is so clever, I wish I had her natural intellect.
I hate to admit it but she's a good baker too. She makes the nicest chocolate crispie cakes.
Rach has the most evil glare. It's where her eyes bow down at you and almost cross. With her dark brown eyes you can feel a little intimidated. We joke now and say "oh look here comes the devil."
She has the most time for my little brother and I will always appreciate that about her! She laughs at his jokes when they're not funny, she'll play XBOX with him til late and she makes him laugh hysterically....I adore that about her!
"Whatever" and "just don't get it do you" are literally her favourite words.
She has the biggest fear of flying and going on boats. I really felt for her when we flew to NYC last November.
I'll always remember when we went to the panto one year when she was little and we got to meet the dwarves playing in Snow White. I'll never ever forget her shouting "MUM LOOK AT SANTA'S TINY LITTLE ELVES!!!" from the top of her voice and everyone turning around in shock.
She snorts when she laughs.
She has this bizarre interest in skiing and will watch the Ski races on Eurosport every spring. Even though she has never skied in her life and never wants to.
She is the most irritating person to watch eat...she picks and prods at everything. JUST EAT GIRL!
Give her a bag of crisps, fanta and reality telly and you have yourself a friend.
She is the least tactile person ever. She hates hugs and kisses...her future husband will have to love her from afar.
She loves taking photos and editing them.
She has to have most things white. Her brand new car will be white with white interior.
I'll never EVER forget when we were little (aged around 9 & 7) we went to this soft play which, to us at the time, had the longest and darkest slide. Just before we went down together she said she was scared so I said to her "sit on my lap and we'll make this the best day of our lives". The whole way down she gripped my hand and at the bottom said "you're right this has been the best day of my life" and proceeded to go down the slide alone the whole time we were there. I'll always remember that has been, to this day, the only time Rachael has held my hand...and the only time she has told me I am right on anything.
She adores anything Disney and has made it her goal to get every single Disney DVD. Her favourite is Hercules.
Rachael's best attribute?...This sister of mine can talk. She used to be SO quiet when she was little but now you can't shut her up.
And lastly....she has taken to being an Auntie to Cohen like gold dust. She is head over heels in love with him and I have a feeling Auntie Rachael will be his favourite :)
Unfortunately today we are all working but what she doesn't know is that she'll be going to see her favourite band - Westlife - play at their goodbye concert in London (she tried to get tickets but they sold out and she was gutted). But she's going! We are all going as a family to her favourite restaurant Friday!
It was really hard to get her something for her birthday but I have got her a bag full of her favourite things. A new Disney DVD, nail varnish, sweets, Nandos voucher, white stuff for her new car, candles.
Happy 21st Birthday Rach, still cannot believe your this age....here's to the next 21 years!
I'm not sure even burnt out is even the word. I really don't know where this year is going at the moment and over the last few weeks I have had something tugging at my heart strings.
I'm sick of my job.
I knew when entering this profession that it involved shift work, which I happen to quite like. I knew that part of the job specification was to do night duty too. But I have noticed since January that my regular 5-6 shifts of night duty per rota has gone up to approx 10-12. It's to the point that I do more nights than day shifts!
A few of my friends like night duty but I really do not. It is slower paced, still busy but in a different way, less patient care and more annoyingly I don't get to enhance my clinical skills as much....because my patients are asleep! It has got to the point now I really feel like my skills are suffering a little, and mixed in with the fact I don't like nights very much, I dread work now.
What I think really made me realise I'd like to move jobs is the other day I had come off nights and flipped back into day shifts (I adjust to the flipping quite well). The day shifts are BUSY and quite often manic which I used to thrive off! But when you're used to the pace of nights going into day shifts is a huge adjustment for me....and I panicked, had a little cry and genuinely thought "I can't do this any more."
I have spoken to my manager but due to us being so short staffed they have very few senior nurses to take charge on nights....so nothing will be changing any time soon with my rota.
Therefore, I feel the only way is out. I think it would be really nice for a change of scenery. I have been at my hospital 5 years now with 3 years of training and 2 years qualified. I think that's long enough?!
I have found a couple of jobs I really would like to go for but I have the hard task of breaking the news to my lovely manager that I want to leave.
It really breaks my heart as I LOVE the people I work with but I feel like I go to work sometimes with this "I can't be bothered" attitude which is not fair on the team or my patients.
A couple of months ago a close blog friend said to me 'all you do is travel...when you booking your next big trip?' and I flat out said no more! I've only just finished paying off Australia a year after we booked it. So no....
Well that flipping went out the window! I have no-one to stop me see....well only other than myself.
I always said after Australia I would save for my own place which realistically will take me about 2 years. So booking a holiday would only extend my stay at home right? Well the sane part of me gets that...but the insane and spontaneous part of me, not so much!
Things between Simon and I are going really well. We have had the 'in the future talks' and if things continue the way they are then naturally at some point we would like to live together. However, we have to be adults and realise we have only been together 5 months and it seems a little too soon to be saving for something as big as a house at the moment. I am sure in November when we have been together a year saving for a house would appeal a lot more!
At Easter we got talking about the little trips we were taking. We've been to Cornwall and in 2 weeks we are going to Spain for a week. So Simon suggested why not, before taking a big step like saving for a house together, we go on a really nice holiday. A place we would not really be able to afford if we had a mortgage!
I leapt at the chance and I still have my 'to visit' list from 2007 that I cross off. Here is the updated one.
It was pretty obvious where we were going to go.
There was no hesitation....
Si did his degree out in Atlanta, GA so he has a big love affair with America. Plus, on my bucket list the only place left to visit in America is Florida! It would be quite nice to tick it off and have America fully crossed off. Although, I really want to add Washington and Charleston to it now!
So next June we are off to Florida where we are hiring a car and touring the state. Our first stop is:
Where we are staying for a week. We have two passes one to Disneyworld and the other to Universal - as I am an huge geek and want to visit Harry Potter land haha! We are staying outside the park on International Drive. The way I see it is if you're going to Florida you cant not go to Disneyworld! On our last day we are going to take a little detour East and visit the Kennedy Space Centre! After this we will then head down south to a city Si really wants to stay at.
We're spending 3 days here and the beach is out of this world. Since California I have fallen in love with pretty beaches so I am sure Miami won't disappoint. Si really wants to visit Jay-Z's 44 club. Does anyone know of anything else that is a must see/do in Miami?!
After Miami we are heading westward to the place I am most excited about going to...
We thought that finishing the holiday off on some really relaxing islands would be the best way! The pictures looks spectacular and we will have 4 days to go see all the 7 seven little islands. I have only heard good things about the Keys so I am very excited to be able to cross this off my bucket list next year!
I feel like it's been an age since I last posted. May is going much faster than I anticipated! However I wanted to blog about my first meeting with my beautiful nephew last week.
He's SO precious!
I met Cohen last Friday when he was 5 days old and he was SO dinky! I just fell in love with him in a second. My sister has got the pictures of me holding him on her camera so I will try and get them off her.
Speaking of Nicola she is doing really well. In fact both Mummy and Daddy are doing brilliantly! They officially got Cohen registered on Friday and they are getting into a routine. It was Cohen's Daddy's birthday on Sunday and Robbie said his best present was Cohen giving him 7 hours sleep! Oh it's the simple things....
So far they have adjusted to being parents well. There is one thing for sure though...Cohen will be a massive Daddy's boy! He is the apple of Robbie's eye and already talking to him about 'when he plays rugby' and has bought him some cute rugby little tops. Cohen just falls asleep straight in his arms and settles.
In just the couple of hours I met him I found him to be a really placid baby. Only stirs when he needs something. Nicola was saying that when she was pregnant every mum was telling her they go through lots of changes of clothes and are quite sick. Well Cohen barely spits up and stays in his first set of clothes all day...clever little man! I love this picture below of Nic and Cohen...melts my heart!
This was the day they brought him home...less than 24 hours after labour. She looks much less tired in this photo. I still find it strange that my sister is a Mum!
Cohen's favourite place right now.....his Dino!
This weekend Cohen is meeting my Gran, his Great Granny! I want to get a photo of Gran, Mum, Nicola and Cohen cause then it would be a photo with four generations in it!