Thursday, 14 January 2010

Stressed, Stressed & Stressed.

This year has kicked off to such a good start...until I started back at university this week. I loved seeing my friends, going back to Starbucks and finally handing in an essay that was murder to complete. Within half an hour of handing in my essay I was set this.

You don't want to know. A 12,000 worded dissertation and two 2000 worded essays. Argh!!! Give me a break.

I walked home today just feeling so deflated. I just cannot see how I can fit in all of that, a 37.5 hour week of placements until June, working weekends, seeing friends and getting adequate sleep! I have not even started the work and my stress levels are spiking. I love my course and I cannot wait to qualify this July. However, everything feels so out of control and way out of my comfort zone. I do not feel prepared one bit.

I am very aware I am lucky to have the education I have. It is only because I want to do well as to why I feel so rubbish! Anyone felt like that?

I was having a big cry this evening (one of many I am sure!) with my Mum. She kept saying 'the light is at the end of the tunnel' which is so true. However, I just feel really negative about everything and feel the need to have a vent :). I have many friends who are in the same position as me so I know I am not alone but we start clinicals next month so I wont see them.

I am the typical type A personality. I like to be prepared, organised and over analyse every situation. I tend to over think rather than just do. I just wish I had more time to be ready before diving in.

It's my only wish right now.


Holly said...

My only advice for you is to take it a tiny little bit at a time. 14,000 words IS a lot, but you don't have to write them all in one go. Do not panic. Just do a little bit every day and eventually you will reach the end. :)

I do what I want! said...

I am right there with you.
Balancing work, school, homework, boyfriend, friends....there just isn't enough time in a day. Stressed doesn't even describe it well enough...more like overload. Your mom is right and we need to just keep thinking about that light at the end of the tunnel! We can do it! Let's be strong and push through! And trust me I have cried many tears this past week as well!

Brittney Galloway said...

You can do it! One step at a time and don't look at it as completing one gigantic task, just many small tasks!

Amanda said...

I feel ya. I used to be totally Type A too, but law school beat it out of me. Resistance is futile, so now I just quell those tendencies and go with the flow. Rough on me, but I think worth it.

Good luck with your papers!

Janet said...

It's going to be tough, but you're a bright, motivated young lady and I have NO doubt that you will cope. Remember that the difficult times make us strong! In no time at all you'll be done! So, keep your chin up, and take it one day at a time. Don't leave anything to the last minute and you will be fine! Hugs from South Africa! xx

Mere said...

Hey babygirl!
I'm in the same boat you are...just a tad farther into it! Go listen to some music for ten minutes and CHILL! I'm a type A personality too so I've lived on the freaked out side here for a while. YOU CAN DO THIS!!

Love, Mere

tonya said...

Something my Great Granny used to say..."It's all ok in the end, and if it's not OK,'s not the end".

student101 said...

I know exactly how u feel! i'm juggling a 16,000 word dissertation, 4 assignments of 4,000 words each and a 400 hr placement! i've given up on the weekend job though, was getting too stressful for me!

tc rebecca! you will definitely make it and come out on top! one day at a time.

koalainscotland said...

When I was doing my dissertation, I remember going nuts and just feeling so stressed and overwhelmed at times. There was one day, I flung myself onto my bed in frustration and screamed into a pillow and was all 'I can't do this anymore'...then a little voice popped into my head..

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming

Yep, the voice was an animated fish by the name of Dory. But it was exactly what I needed to hear.

So just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.

You will get there. One day at a time.

Stephanie RN BSN (to be!) said...

I know how you feel...there are so many times that I have wanted to just bawl my eyes out and forget the mound of assignments I have left to do. Nursing school is enough to make you crazy! Just remember, take it one day at a time; don't think too far ahead or you'll freak yourself out! I'm trying to do that and it helps :)

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