Saturday, 23 January 2010

And know that we will always be friends.

I have been dreading this weekend for ages, even though I knew it was coming. It had to.

One of my best friend's Lou Lou is moving to Barbados with her fiancĂ© - indefinitely. She leaves this week but due to my ever increasing hectic timetable I will last be seeing her this weekend. 

I know she will come and visit (once she leaves I will be counting the days until July) and I will visit her. However, it is going to be so hard from seeing her virtually every week to a couple of times a year. I can't not post this and not say how incredibly happy I am for her. She is going to embark on a very exciting new chapter in her life. A new country, planning a wedding, new job, new climate and new everything. I know she is scared but you can see the anticipation and readiness to go.

For someone who I have known for about a year and a half she has certainly made an impact on me. In 2009 she showed just how amazing she was by helping me with my split from my ex. Looking back now she is the only thankful thing that came from that relationship. I met her and never looked back. She has been there for the good parties, the funny chats, watching home and away, movie days, take-away nights and the break ups. We have leant upon each other so much.

I know without question we will be there for each other just as much. Even with the Atlantic separating us. I know Antonio - her fiancĂ© - will look after her so well. It just will not be the same, as selfish as it is to say. But she deserves this so much :)

Tomorrow night we will say goodbye - not indefinitely - but it is going to be tough. And as I struggle to not break down in tears typing this out I dread to think what we will be like tomorrow. Lou Lou, if you read this I just want to thank you for opening up about your life's journey and for, also, teaching me that you can  never judge a book by its cover until you have read its story.

Lou Lou's leaving drinks 22.01.10.

And just so you know. Even though we may say good-bye for a while: we still watch the same sunset.

I love you chicken.

N.B - Also, please may you keep my friend Claire in your thoughts, wishes and prayers. She has had to immediately return home from Namibia where she is taking a gap year teaching. Her older sister Fay, who is 23, passed away due to a heart attack. She had just been on a long haul plane journey from Dubai to Afghanistan (where she was doing missionary work). They suspect a blood clot. I feel so numb for her and I know she would value all thoughts and prayers. Thank you :)

Thursday, 14 January 2010

Stressed, Stressed & Stressed.

This year has kicked off to such a good start...until I started back at university this week. I loved seeing my friends, going back to Starbucks and finally handing in an essay that was murder to complete. Within half an hour of handing in my essay I was set this.

You don't want to know. A 12,000 worded dissertation and two 2000 worded essays. Argh!!! Give me a break.

I walked home today just feeling so deflated. I just cannot see how I can fit in all of that, a 37.5 hour week of placements until June, working weekends, seeing friends and getting adequate sleep! I have not even started the work and my stress levels are spiking. I love my course and I cannot wait to qualify this July. However, everything feels so out of control and way out of my comfort zone. I do not feel prepared one bit.

I am very aware I am lucky to have the education I have. It is only because I want to do well as to why I feel so rubbish! Anyone felt like that?

I was having a big cry this evening (one of many I am sure!) with my Mum. She kept saying 'the light is at the end of the tunnel' which is so true. However, I just feel really negative about everything and feel the need to have a vent :). I have many friends who are in the same position as me so I know I am not alone but we start clinicals next month so I wont see them.

I am the typical type A personality. I like to be prepared, organised and over analyse every situation. I tend to over think rather than just do. I just wish I had more time to be ready before diving in.

It's my only wish right now.

Sunday, 10 January 2010

Guest Post for a Blog Friend.

Hi all!

I am just checking in to let you know I did my first guest post as a blogger today (yay!). Laura asked me to take part in her new project 'LFS Introducing.' The concept is so simple and incredibly motivational. I talked about my experience as a student nurse and I am very proud I did it.

So if you have a couple of minutes to spare then please have a read, here.

If you have an experience, hobby or a big interest you would like to talk about then please contact Laura. I found it really therapeutic :) Below is a video of her explaining the LSF idea. I cant tell you how much I have enjoyed working with her.

I am really looking forward to seeing what future guest bloggers talk about and what inspires them. 

Have a great week everyone.

Wednesday, 6 January 2010

What I'm Looking Forward To This Year...

I love to do lots of things but two of my favourite hobbies are reading and watching films. In reflection on 2009 I did not read enough (unless it was Nursing related) and I went to the cinema 5 times (I cannot believe I can count that on one hand). Not enough ventures out to the movies in my book.

Therefore, this year I am going to make a bigger effort to have some more 'Me' time and enjoy reading books I love and enjoy seeing films. This makes me happy :) Below are a list of films I am so excited to see this year and some books I am looking forward to getting lost in. Let me know what you think...


The Blind Side - This does not come out until February over here but I have heard such great reviews. I am a sucker for anything that will tug at my heart strings. Plus, I think the storyline you can learn a lot from. I cannot wait to see this film.

Alice in Wonderland - I am not really a fan of Tim Burton films because of the way he makes everything come across quite 'dark'. I did not enjoy his version of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory at all. However, the cast for the film is impressive and the trailer makes me want to see it.

Shrek Forever After - I think the character of 'Donkey' is one of the funniest characters ever written and is by far one of my favourite films. I do think they are making too many of the films but I am excited to see it anyhow. This is the last one they are releasing I believe and  Shrek enters this sort of fairytale in order to live happily ever after. It comes out in May which is when I will be working hard on my dissertation so I know this will be a comedic break away from it all!

Toy Story 3 - This is the film I am most excited about seeing!!! :) The Toy Story movies are my favourite Pixar animation films. The plot, cast, animation and humour is fantastic. It is a film for all ages and I know the wait til June will be worth it. My favourite characters are Dinosaur and Ham! They are films I can watch over and over again!

Grown Ups - This is a film starring Adam Sandler and Chris Rock. It is released in June. My brother has been telling me about it and it sounds rather appealing. It is about 5 friends who come together after 30 years apart. They reminisce over how they met, the good times etc and realise that just because they are growing older doesn't mean they have to grow up.

Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 1 - Need I say more? I love the books and the majority of the films are very well depicted. I adore the music, the magic and just the jargon of it all! I am gutted that the films are nearing the end.


The Book of Tomorrow - I have already finished this book and I devoured it in two days. It is by the same author of the infamous book and film PS. I Love You. It is about a girl whose father passes away and she goes to live with her 'odd' Aunt and Uncle. She finds this book in a travelling library that has the magic to know exactly what will happen in her life 'tomorrow' before it has even happened. I loved every bit of it and to be honest would love a book like that myself.

Same Kind of Different as Me - I am reading this for the Bloom Book Club. It is the first faith based book I have ever read. I am really enjoying it so far and I love that it is set in deep south America during the civil rights movement. It reminds me of one of my favourite books ever 'To Kill A Mockingbird' - so far this book is excellent!

Things I want my daughters to know -  Just from reading the blurb I know this will make me cry. It is about a mother who passes away and leaves letters for her four daughters to help them. They each have a certain unhappiness about their lives but even though their Mum has passed away she is still helping them. My sister is reading this at the moment and I even saw her tear marks on some pages. I know that this is selling for a great price on at the moment :)

I am tempted to read 'The Twilight Saga' but I am being stubborn as I do not want to get caught in the hype of it all. My Mum says that it is just like the Harry Potter phase people went through but I got into Harry Potter long before people became 'obsessed' by it. Callie also told me about a book called 'A Girl's Best Friend' so I am going to look into that.

Anyone else got any films or books to recommend? 

Glee starts over here in the UK next week and just the little snippets I have seen have got me laughing out loud. I am making a date with my sofa to watch that. I have a new navigation bar at the top of my blog where I am putting all my 365 photos. So far so good and I am enjoying it so much....

Have a great week!

Friday, 1 January 2010

Two Thousand and Ten.

Happy New Year Everyone!

So a new day, a new year and a new decade :) I LOVED seeing the New Year fireworks (and the confetti in Times Square!) from around the world. I can honestly say I was pleased that 2009 ended. I spent new years round my friend's Lou Lou's new year/engagement party. Despite having a stinking cold it was fantastic to see my friends, chat, watch fireworks, dance to music and dress up. When I got to bed at 11am this morning I knew that I had started 2010 in a good way.

I remember ten years ago when we had the Millennium and my year six teacher quoted something to me that has always stuck with me each year Big Ben has chimed in midnight.

'The optimistic person stays up until midnight and beyond to see the new year in with hope and anticipation. The pessimist stays up until midnight to make sure the old year ends.'

I am always optimistic about a new year. I always try to envisage a good year ahead with positive changes. I am not a person who makes new years resolutions because they pretty much end by lunchtime on January 1st. However, this year I am starting project 365 so my task is to maintain that and I am excited. :)

This is the only picture I got at midnight as I was being smothered with new year hugs. Seeing the new year in with hope and anticipation.

Have you got any new years resolutions for 2010? I cannot wait to see and read what this new year brings to all of you!
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