Friday, 17 July 2009

I am just...


I do not think I have ever wanted a month - especially a summer month to end as much as this one!

I really do not know if I am coming or going at the moment. I really hate to moan but I really need to vent here whilst I have a moment spare to process it. I have been so busy on my cardiac placement - to the point the cardiac system may just give me a heart attack lol! I am doing a mix of early, lates and night shifts and it has just buggered up my sleeping and eating patterns. As well as that I am working weekends to earn money with many of my friends birthdays on top of that!

My bed is literally my best friend at the moment. I went to bed last night and just cried and cried until I could not produce anymore tears. I think my tear ducts are sick of me haha! I just could not understand why I am doing this to myself but the fact of the matter is I have no choice. I am sick with worry over my exams on Wednesday which gets you onto senior year if you pass.

It's like Marmite: I love it but I also hate it at the same time! I cannot wait until the 28th of July when I can shut my nursing books for 4 weeks, reduce my working hours and do absolutely nothing. I can't wait to see my friends properly, to read a good book rather than read about systemic circulation and just to wake up at midday and not feel guilty!

In saying that I have had some free time to celebrate some birthdays with some good food like below.

Thanks for reading this - how do you prevent your head from exploding with constant to do lists?!



Caragh said...

I do something JUST for me.
Like get my hair done.
Or have a pedicure.
and for those 40 minutes.. I am completely by myself and nothing else bothers me.


Alex(andra) said...

*hug* I'm sorry!! It'll be over soon!

I usually take a walk or go workout to help get my mind off of things. Or read. :)

Brittany said...

I feel the same way when school finals come around... I hate them! Being a student is TOUGH! I'm sure your friends understand why you can't hang out a lot as of lately- you are BUSY! Don't feel guilty!!
Don't get discouraged! The fact that your sleep has been off kilter might be a major reason why you are feeling so physically and mentally exhausting. Go take time for yourself. Do something YOU love. Go take a warm bath, get a manicure, cuddle up with some popcorn and a movie. You deserve it. Exams will be over soon and you are gonna do GREAT!

Stephanie RN BSN (to be!) said...

Don't make so many lists! I found myself going crazy because I had so much to do...cut back and only do what's absolutely necessary for the moment. Then when life slows down, you can go back and do the things that don't get done!

Callie Nicole said...

When I have too many lists I take a nice bath and read a book for a little bit. Or relax with a cup of tea and just veg out in front of the TV for a half hour. It helps me deal with stress to spend a half hour relaxing, then get back to work!
I hope you get some good rest soon!

Allie Garcia said...

you have probably already done this, but it helps me to actually write out the to do lists, and cross them off as i go along. :)

Candy Hart said...

Wow - you are busy!! You must be pretty smart to be that far in school, i'm sure your exams will breeze by!

To clear my head, I like to run. We have these trails in town that i follow and it really works. Either that or a good massage will do the trick everytime!!! Specially if its a cute guy giving you the massage!!!

Good luck!

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